Th love tht lasts. (:

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

I almost left lastnight.
Almost.
Wells. But as you can see.
I never suceed.
Cause something's holding me back.
My family, My friends.

Wells.
I need time, I guess.
Because apparently,
I'm still asking around for th Nlevel timing and stuffs.
I'm still interested in hearing stories about him.

Everyone believes he would come back one day.
But will he anot?

Mum saw me crying lastnight.
And came in, and asked me one question.
"If he tells you he's willing t come back t you, will you give him th chance t?"
This question kept me thinking for th whole day.

Wells.
I've always looked on th darker side of life.

I tell myself,
even if I'm willing t wait for his return.
But th problem is, is he willing t return?
Wells. Sounds contradicting it may seems.
But who knows.
I hope my decision for this time is correct.

Met up with Phyllis for her clay work today.

Then off t kovan for maths tuition.
Tuition was rather productive, except th phone call that kawson received.
And he was asked t go St'James.
Fuck sia.
FUCKING HELL DISTRACTED.

Intended t meet Leroy up.
But dua-ed him lastmin.
Sorry!

Met up with th sickboy, Xiaogu instead.

HougangMall-ed.
And off t some void deck t slack.
Kovan-ed for his dinner.
And met up with Jessie.

And Jessie in turn met up with Darren.
Who is now her stead already.
Congrats. (:

Allrights.
Off t take a bath now.
And sleep.
Cause I need t be at Best's house at 7.50 tomorrow.

And t you;
I did not msg you for th whole of today.
It INDEED felt weird.
But I guess. That no longer affects you anymore.
It's allright with me.
For I guess. You're happy with th way you are with Sheena now.
Don't worry.
Because after today.
I won't disturb you anymore.
I guess You must be waiting t see this.
So, there. Your wish is fulfilled.
There's no use in me, cutting myself everynight,
leaving those ugly scars on my leg.
AND YET. YOU DIN'T FUCKING HELL CARED AT ALL.
You actually love another person. And lie t me at th same time.
This shows, how much you have changed.
YOU CHANGED SO MUCH.
Note that, leonard.
YOU'VE CHANGED.
Who's th one, asking me.
"We ain't friends anymore?"
That kind of thing.
AND THEN YOU, AVOIDING ME IN EVERY WAY YOU COULD.
You call this FUCKING FRIENDS?
I wonder, did you eat that spongecake with ease?
YOU ACTUALLY STEAD WITH HER ALREADY.
AND CAN STILL LIE T ME AND STUFFS.
AND CAN STILL EAT TH SPONGECAKE I MADE FOR YOU.
Fuck myself for believing you time & again.
Fuck myself for telling myself t always trust you even though I know it's not th truth.
Right.
FUCKMYSELF.

试着去努力鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚还是找到了我排山倒海来袭

*一定是我不够好 所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角 躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好 不要故意躲开
不让我知道

只要你过得很好什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好*

总有一天你会看到爱如海掀起惊天巨滔
我会以无坚不摧的力量让你知道


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MY LOVE.
I love th way you touch me, so soft and sensuously.
It makes me tingle all over.

I love th way you kiss me.
It starts a fire deep down inside me, and makes me yearn for you even more.

I love th way you look at me, it makes me feel treasured.
Most of all, I love th way you love me.

When you walk in, my whole day gets better.
And even wnen you're not with me, you're in my thoughts always.

It doesnt matter what we don't have or what we do have,
Th most important thing is tht we have each other, and no one can take tht away.

I'm th luckiest woman in th world,
and I don't need or want anything, but you beside me loving me t th end of our days.


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